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Conversation with God
Feb. 21st, 2009 06:04 amAfter 6 days of not being able to sleep properly, I finally had a good quality of sleep yesterday.
Thank God, because the next time I can have good quality of sleep is when mom will be dismissed from the hospital, which is around next week. Mom will enter the hospital tomorrow, have the major surgery on the following day (23 Feb), and will stay around 6 days (hopefully less) for recovery. I will spend most nights there, with probably having 1-2 nights substituted by my brother. For sure, I won't be able to sleep well at the hospital.
Anyhow, it's already 6.20 AM and I haven't slept yet although I have to wake up before 9!
I wanted to write this before I forget...
I had a beautiful conversation with God during my one-hour prayer 3 hours ago. Reflecting on how my close friends had been taken away one by one since 2 years ago (which mostly still remain as friends until today, but not as close anymore), I asked God, "How do I keep on trusting people with all my heart? Because each time I trust a friend completely, I always end up being betrayed... And then I have to do it all over again and my trust might slowly fade away with each try and I would end up not trusting anyone at the end of the day."
I heard Him reply, "I never betray you."
That didn't really answer my question, but my heart is content :3
Thank God, because the next time I can have good quality of sleep is when mom will be dismissed from the hospital, which is around next week. Mom will enter the hospital tomorrow, have the major surgery on the following day (23 Feb), and will stay around 6 days (hopefully less) for recovery. I will spend most nights there, with probably having 1-2 nights substituted by my brother. For sure, I won't be able to sleep well at the hospital.
Anyhow, it's already 6.20 AM and I haven't slept yet although I have to wake up before 9!
I wanted to write this before I forget...
I had a beautiful conversation with God during my one-hour prayer 3 hours ago. Reflecting on how my close friends had been taken away one by one since 2 years ago (which mostly still remain as friends until today, but not as close anymore), I asked God, "How do I keep on trusting people with all my heart? Because each time I trust a friend completely, I always end up being betrayed... And then I have to do it all over again and my trust might slowly fade away with each try and I would end up not trusting anyone at the end of the day."
I heard Him reply, "I never betray you."
That didn't really answer my question, but my heart is content :3
